penasaran. tulis baru la.

so, 16/02. thursday. almost friday now. midnight.
apparently everything was supposed to be work-your-ass off and then reset your body clock
but some motherfather burnt trashes, prompting me to nap
kemarin malam allnighternya sebenanrya tergolong cukup efektif sih, headache memang expeccted, tapi dampaknya uda so much less significnat compared to previous allnighters. even the sompo japan class was very.. positive.
anyway, napped.
terus sekarang balik lagi malamnya gabisa tidur. fml, khan?
tried the recipe, tried the weightless marconi group music, terus sharing session.
daemonev, raf, my past. hahaha.
im getting flashbacks.
at one point, the conversation was like - ever imagined what would happen if ecam wasnt banned? or if hilyah or kalvin didnt throw that
for all i know the 2014 team could be me and those lovebirds
i wouldnt have been.. troulbed, so to speak the least.
raf: yeah, right, ga bakalan terlibat sama sarah, not yara either, not tiffany either.
terus dhian datang.
oh shit youre right, hahahahaha.
if god has palnned, there is no getting way out from this.. plan of pendewasaan.
ah, anyway, wth. cant sleep. gonna rub one out i guess.


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gini ya
friday was perfect -- so productive, exercises, and research, and forcing to work
saturday was shit. even for a rest day. so shit.
sunday, is kind of shit, meskipun paginya was so great, tapi masuk ke pajak beruang yeah, well that happened
but not without results, at least you know how the aura is kind of conflicting iwth your.. god. or whatsoever lha. yg di phoenix itu.
monday was shit again, nunggu kabar2 job dr nicky itu menyebabkan ketidakjelasan yg membahana hingga sampai ke.. ah whatever the fuck la
tuesday was actually kind of ok; bangun pagi, gabisa tetidur, terpaksa olahraga, olahraga made me focus on doing nicky job, terus in the end when akhirnya jobnya uda kelar setelah siangnya ngajar sompo, mati listrik, i olahraga lagi
actually only shit again nya cuma a little bit on the night setelah kembali kena jerat sama facebook dan youtube

wednesday, here i fucking am. pln khonthol. i am not supposed to use this for rest day.
pagi sampai siang tidur, terus makan, terus tidur lagi sampai sore ini sewaktu mau ngajar.

thursday. 23/2.
hey, it was so.. productive.
from waking up early to working out to a quick lesson plan to the productive session of fixing my linkedin CV at sompo...
up until to the point where i am getting the urge to be distracted after having bpk lunch.

and now today it's 26/02. sunday.
khan2. betulan khan. setelah urge to be distracted itu, betulan.
it goes from facebook. to youtube. to 9gag. and then to porn. and then back to either one of those motherfucking retarded devil cycles agian.
i shouldve just watched dr strange back then, you know, brew a cuppa coffee and then get distracted for a while.
at least it doestn serve permanent effect towards the cycle of depression
wanna know what happens next?
friday jadi rest day, fucking retarded.
siangnya memang ada sempat terbangun sebentar, then tried to go to settle inhaler sompo urus kunci gembok phoenix etc etc -- ga ada satupun yg beres.
malamnya, perubahan bioritme tubuh.
guess what? sabtu juga jadi demikian. cuma bangun setelah diajak mau makan siang.
and then today, sunday, again still juga those retarded vicious cycle. cuma terbangun setelah terpaksa mau pergi gerak ngajar.

i am not going to fall to this again next week.
come on! productive week next week! jia you!

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hi.
erm.
shit, i guess?
27/2, monday, shit.
28/2, tuesday, terbangun, yes. tapi kemudian tidur lagi jam 8-11
no, bitch. ada rabu abu di pagi harinya itu. makanya selasa malamnya you decide that things just leave it to mom.
1/3, wednesday, terbangun, yes, tapi ga olahraga AND IT FUCKING HAPPENED AGAIN
thursday, friday
oh well. ada pesta nikahan isrok octa on saturday dan ada janji mau ketemu erica ntar.

you know the 4/3 saturday? i kinda danced with death. and won. narrowly.
kinda made me grateful though. i love my bike. and.. im indebted to erica. oh well, i pray that everybody be successful and happy in their lives. i. i love them.
5/3, thanks mom.